I'll Still Stay the Same

damn it
i have something that i desperately wanted to confess for quite a long time
but i'm afraid that i'll lose everything once i let it out
afraid that i'll slide down from my current position
i'm such a coward
been thinking very hard these days
telling myself again and again not to make another mistake
no flaws anymore
but after yesterday
i realized that its not that easy to do so
i've tried to stay strong
but i failed to do so
i kept thinking about it over and over again
but i'm relieved that now there's a big rock there to stop me from telling it out
so i'll just choose to keep it to myself
until the day i'm allowed to spill it all out at one time
no matter what,
i'll always stay the same