I'm devastated or maybe not

i feel so restless
felt like my heart's broken into pieces

now that my aspiration was dashed
i really have no where to go
i'm so fond of being a lawyer but i heard something that kinda made me feel like an immense amount of force is coming straight to me
i felt so lost
my mum helped me to "interview" my cousin bro, a lawyer-to-be a few days ago
apparently, the outcome was a bad one
he said that its very difficult to study law
i gotta :
know well about malaysia's history ( oh gawd, i always score so badly in my history ! )
very superb in english ( i'm dying, i suck in eng ! )
have good memorizing skills
and so on ~
cause they were distracted by my aunts so thats all i get from my mum
ughhh
when my mum told me all these this afternoon
i was like oh ~
totally blank
i'm so into this thingy and yet you tell me its so hard to .. erm .. blaaaaaa
totally devastated
but i told myself that i'll not give up !
i'm not affected by all these external forces
i told myself that as long as i have the interest in this thing, i have the enthusiasm, i have the anxiousness, i have the keenness, i'll certainly success
so i'm not defeated by all these obstructions/obstacles
i'd gave in in being a chemist
i'll not give away my obsessions on being a lawyer =D

*woohoo david cook is the bombshell ! congrats on being the 7th american idol
kinda sad though me cuty david archuleta got runner-up
and and david cook's "always be my baby" is wonderful xD

* upcoming posts : cheah's b'day and today's