Dispelled

whats wrong with me?
i get lonely in a crowd,
everyone is smiling,
but i made myself left out.
i got an imaginary shield around me,
but nobody's ever really getting through.
i keep thinking that they're gonna break me free,
but they never do !
when somebody's knocking,
when somebody wants me,
when somebody's trying to love me completely.
i get scared,
i dont know how it works.
will somebody save me?
or will i get burned?
i dont wanna get burned..
is there thickness in the air?
or are you heavy on my heart?
why cant i just fit in?
why cant i do what everyone else does?
people come around like a storm,
when you least expect them to.
for me i run for cover,
when i should really face the truth.