It's My First Time ...

it's my first time to feel so fking restless
it's my first time to give up on history
it's my first time to be so damn lazy
it's my first time to feel like crying but i couldn't find a reason for it
it's my first time to feel so unwilling to let someone go
it's my first time to feel so damn idiotic useless
someone please wake me up, i've had enough already
exam's 24+ hours away and i'm so not ready
i tried to study today but frankly nothing went in my mind
i'm so dead