About that burden...

about something that i've finally let go...
about something that i've been holding on for two years plus...
about something that i've left behind with my past and decide to move forward..


Two years and almost three have passed, it wasn't an easy period to bear with. I've been to hell and now I'm here again. There were times where i really, really wanna let go and give up but i just can't. Do you know how hard it was for me to keep this to myself? Do you know how hard it was to fake a smile? I'm not asking for anything, for everything that has been done is good enough. For now I'm blessed for i can finally, like finally let go of this thing that I've been holding on like forever. I'm ready for a new life, a new beginning, and a new ME. I appreciate that we're still friends, it didn't ruin our relationship and it will not. As for last time, i might say I'm gonna give up this time and never return; but for sure I'll return to the same old me not long after. This time however, let bygones be bygones. I'm done with everything and now I'm going to jump into the outside world and explore new things. I can not always stay in this circle and turn myself round and round like a fool on the ground. You were very meaningful to me and you will always be. You deserve a place in my heart, a sweet memory that I'll never forget. Somehow, I can still see the spark but no i wouldn't want to trigger it no more. Once is more than enough. (: