procrastinations are meant to be made
at this very moment, it's time to slow down your footsteps and figure out what you're actually fighting for
its's really heart-aching to reach for something that you know it's impossible for you to
and annoying having the things that you don't hope for
dont you just wish that everything will end in a blink of eye ?
never forget people + people = complications and confusion
things come and go
people come and go
never frown, never mourn










morns are always the best time of the day
it's nice sitting down waiting for the morn to arrive
it's refreshing watching the start of a new day with your own eyes

two weeks of tensions and stresses and pressures
and something is haunting me at the same thing
exam + ... = dead meat
now its mrs.pms
furg it, pain to the core
bm, history, eng, est, maths, add maths, moral down
3 more subjects to go = 8 more papers ! ugh
gone all cuckoo/bananas during the exam period
the pictures tell all




now smile because add maths and history's over

close ur noses because chemistry's attacking


and widen ur eyes because of the interference of waves by the physicist

and say cheese because account's on tuesday !

It's My First Time ...

it's my first time to feel so fking restless
it's my first time to give up on history
it's my first time to be so damn lazy
it's my first time to feel like crying but i couldn't find a reason for it
it's my first time to feel so unwilling to let someone go
it's my first time to feel so damn idiotic useless
someone please wake me up, i've had enough already
exam's 24+ hours away and i'm so not ready
i tried to study today but frankly nothing went in my mind
i'm so dead

[100 Truths]



001. Real Name: Ho Pei Ying
002. Nickname(s): Ying, peiying, annabelle and lala
003. Age: 17
004. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Sekolah Seri Suria
007. Middle School: Sekolah Seri Suria
008. High School: Sekolah Seri Suria
009. College School: Er ..
010. Hair colour: Very very dark brown ?
011. Long or Short: Short. ( finally, it's short )
012. Loud or Quiet: Loud, duh
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Camera
015. Health Freak: Nope. hope to be one
016. Drink or Smoke: Tried drinking, and i dislike it. and i abhor smoking
017. Do you have a crush on someone: well, no idea
018. Eat or Drink: eat, duh
019. Piercings: yeah, 7
020. Tattoos: not yet, hope to get one
021. Social or Anti- Social : Social, but anti-social at times
022. First piercing: senior 1
023. First relationship : senior 1
024. First Best Friend: i'll say it's ivin
025. First Award: no idea LOL
026. First Kiss : yeah, duh
027. First Pet: never lol
028. First Big Vacation: Singapore ?
029. First Love at first sight : Nope
030. First Big Birthday: A month after i was born



Currently


049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Nothing
051. Excitement level : Low
052. I'm about to: Go to sleep.
053. Listening to: Yesterday - Leona
054. Plan for today: Sleep
055. Waiting for: Nothing
056. Energy Level: Very Low
057. Thinking of someone: Yeah
058. Want kids?: Duh
059. Want to get married?: Of course
060. Careers in mind?: hahahahaha

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like


068. Lips or Eyes?: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Romantic + Funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: Taller
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Stomach haha
074. Sensitive or Loud?: A lil bit of both
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Neither



Have you ever


080. Lost glasses or contacts: Yes
081. Ran away from home: Never will i
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: Nope
083. Killed somebody: Of course no
084. Broken someone's heart: No idea ?
085. Been arrested: Nope, ngek
087. Cried when someone dead: yeah, well not really cause too sad to cry



Do you believe in

089. Yourself: Sometimes
090. Miracles: Absolutely
091. Love at first sight: Never had it before, i'll only believe after having it
092. Heaven: Very much
093. Santa Claus: I do, sometimes
094. Tooth Fairy: Yes lol
095. Kiss in the first date: First date ? not really
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? Yeah, my friends
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? Happy much
099. Do you believe in God? Yeap
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people:

Tagging :

Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone
Anyone

there's just too much dramas going on
uncountable, undeniable and very much unbearable
as time goes by, everything changed/changes/will change
and so do people
they can pretend like nothing happened before and get going with life
maybe i'm the one who changed ?
but seriously i don't think so
i'm still the old me and it all depends on how u judge me
i dont care no more since its not worth it to get things back in place anymore again
came across a very meaningful phrase in Mr.Ali's blog,
"You live once, you die once... So think twice" by Alireza Manzour

time flies people, do cherish your time while you're with you love ones
i'm fatigued with everything that's happening at this moment and i really wish that i can rest and procrastinate

seriously, i dont feel like talking to anyone
despite how important that person is
yes FCUK it.

" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."
- Arabian Proverb

a lil confessions to make on this very pleasant day
where every couple will have their own sweet time outside with their very love ones
walking down the street with bouquets of flowers and boxes of chocolate
having their candlelight dinner
well basically this post has nothing to do with love, nothing about boyfriend nor girlfriend
it's about someone that was once very special to me
seriously i miss the times we had
fate wasnt at our side
our relationship did lasted for years and i'll keep the memories we had in my heart, for good
i didnt meant to hurt or blame anyone for this whole drama
we were once very close to each other and it's like we couldn't share nothing
i felt relieved that after we separate, you have a better life, well perhaps
i can see from your face that you're enjoying your current life
you have your own new friends that really cherish you and vice versa
after today, i have a million,billion and trillion of memories we had together in my mind
the times we laughed, the times we cried, the times we argued
there is noone to blame in this incident, maybe God wants us to learn from our past mistakes that we've made
though i've heard quite a number of negative comments about you
but i ignored them because deep down inside, i believe that you're not that kind of person
i truly believe that you'll not betray your love ones and you're not two-faced
presently, we both have our own better and new life that we should treasure
last but not least, i do miss you
_____________________________________________________________________

in contrast, had a quite enjoying valentines' day today
tagged along with the gang
got two valentines pressies from the darlings
though they aint gigantic thing or expensive ones but i do felt the love hah !

2nd day of Cny
well my family's tradition is to have brunch with dad side's relatives then mum side's relatives for dinner
as usual, my parents and grandma woke up kinda early to prepare brunch for the family
very delicious one, duh my grandma is a very excellent cook
so receiving lots of red packets already ?

pot full with gold