okay G,
stop playing with S already
boo yeah, she killed someone well literally
better get back to rehab before your monkey friends start searching for you all over the place





alright middle west siders, this time imma do it all by myself

poor little j,
you wont know what you're up to when you mess with queen b
till then

I didn't hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions, never maybe
And I'm not kind if you betray me
So who the hell are you to save me?
I never would've made it baby

If you needed love
Well then ask for love
Could have given love
Now I'm taking love
And it's not my fault
What's coming now
So don't say a word

Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don't you care about me anymore? Don't you care about me?
I don't think so

Six foot tall came without a warning
so I had to shoot him dead
He won't come around here anymore.
Come around here? I don't think so

Would've bared to make you happy
You didn't need to treat me that way
And now you beat me at my own game
And now I'm finally sleeping soundly
And your lover's screaming loudly,
here a sound and hit the ground

I'm so sorry darling;
did I do the wrong thing?
Oh, what was I thinking?
Is his heart still beating?

it was baby darling's birthday
dad threw a party for him
a sudden yet surprise party i would say
was supposed to have lamb for the night
but unfortunately it was soaked in water ?
everything ruined so ended up with fried rice and stuffs, sad =(
btw, happy belated baby boy
i admit its true that i dont really care about you but well it's not that i dont care
it's that i dont know how to show
but always remember, we do love you very much

it was the day right after the exams
the other darlings were having their bio while we physics students have a day off !
as it was honleong's birthday so we decided to celebrate it for him
headed to jusco with cheah and the gang
all in all we have lotsa fun that day !
watched 大喜事 well i couldnt remember the eng one
last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING =)
darling as in friends, a dearly one
was supposed to join the guys for bbq that night but i couldnt make it cause the parents were having dinner

well it was the surian's charity run that other day i couldnt remember
or they call it cross country or marathon or merentas desa and so
after 10 years in suria, it's my first time participating in this event
it was pretty fun and very tiring
what's more than being around your loved ones ?

well eventually everything's back in place
life's like the olden days
where we laugh our lungs out and bitch about bitches we bitched
sincerely hoping that nothing's or NO ONE gonna mess up soon
life like this is "new" and refreshing
looks like i've crossed the boundary(s) set
pretty much reluctant and unwilling for the leftovers but time will heal
words of wisdom from friends really gave me motivations
it's true that we shouldnt try too hard to get back what's gone
the more you feel needy, the more things will distant from you
better to keep it to yourself at times and not pouring too much of yourself
sometimes the more you try to fix a problem, you'll end up putting more problems in it
well a rubber band is simply a perfect metaphor to exaggerate this situation
when they pull away, they can stretch only so far before they come springing back
certainly things pull away for reasons and when they're fully stretched away, then they'll come back instantly all on its own

5th day of the bangkok trip
we were back in bangkok, had our breakfast and then it's shopping day, but not a fun one
news were reporting that there are protests at the international airport that day
wasnt really sure that we will get home safely that day or not
or more precise, whether we can go home or not
dad was so worried and so but yet we managed to get clothes for ourselves
i guess i got myself for around 10 shirts that day ? including two pants
sad that i didnt get myself dresses cause seriously i cant find nice ones and shoes too ugh !
but i got a pair of sandals teehee
bros got their shirts for cny
mummy got herself a purse and bag from gucci and lv



later that day, around 5 pm we were told that it's impossible to get on the plane to get home as all the planes were canceled
we called the tour guide that lead us to make sure what we can do
we ended up shifting to another hotel that night as we were seriously running out of cash
parents arent into credit cards but just cash =x
took a night in another hotel and we booked a van to get us down to hat yai for another day so we can catch a bus back to kl the following day


eventually we took a 14 hours trip the next day via a van to hat yai
booked a hotel in hat yai for our beauty sleep before we continue our journey back to kl
that night, we went out for a walk at the city before dozing off
the next morning we woke up for breakfast in the hotel and went for shopping again
funny isnt it ? we were like running away from the chaos
to get home but still in the mood of shopping
i got myself another shirt and leggings
daddy got the tickets for the bus
we had the konsortium bus
damn it's friggin comfortable and the seats are wide, think WIDE
a bus consisting 27 seats, imagine that
there we go another 12/13 hours ride
total 27 hours of rides getting our asses back to kl



say bye to thailand


daddy got us this really delicious drumstick when we're at the custom checking our passports and so
and the drumstick's really huge



and welcome home malaysians !
we got home at about 11 something i guess
lesson learnt : none
transportation travelled : including sky, water and land
which include airplane,parachute, boat, jet ski, car, van, train, bus
overall comment : damn fun !

a lil superb thoughts to share though
find them pretty motivating and meaningful

how awkward can it get ?
undeniably i've been through a very rough and harsh weekend
maybe i've let the ones that cared for me down or what so ever IDN
no doubts that i was really furious and facing grieves last weekend
i set a boundary for myself that i'll never trust anyone in my life anymore
but i told myself to get over it and carry on with life
i can see that everything's going smooth and fine these few days
i've tried my level best to get everything back in place
but it seems that luck wasnt at my side
i admit that i've hurt one of my love one brutally for the words i've said or the actions i've did
so then, i told myself never mind of all these as long as you still wanna be like last time
this is cool with me, as i can see that everything is getting better
all the grudges, hostilities and misunderstandings are finally revealed and amended
i made the first step to confess every single thing
but if peeps aren't working with me, i couldnt say a word then
maybe what i can do is just shut up and suck it in
blaming myself for what i've done and what i've not
sincerely, i hope that that gap between us will eventually vanish and POOOFFF it's gone
i can see that it's evaporating bit by bit


well, you wouldn't know what will happen when the cats are out of the box
it's just like sword by sword being stabbed right onto your heart
you couldnt care less as one thing connects to another and the other one relates to the other one
at the very beginning, i might be the con one
i find everything really deceiving, merely illusions
but later on i find it totally ridiculous
i just can't blame anyone for what's happening on me
again i would like to say that seriously i tried my best to get things back in place
i just don't want all these to get any worse
i'm totally sick and tired of all these


adding on,
i don't find any detriments nor mischiefs to be friends with someone to our liking
you just shouldn't care much who others are with or are intimate with
i told one close friend of mine that i couldn't believe anyone in my life anymore
but deep inside, i truly and totally believe in him/her
i doubt that it did hurt his/her feelings or maybe not IDN also
i just hope that we'll get back to last time
where there will be no gaps nor boundaries in between
sometimes people just need someone they really trust to confess their inner thoughts
they just need someone to share them but they don't intend to hurt anyone
well, i'm cool with it if the outcome is negative


life like this is totally torturing and devastating
at one moment i might seem to be laughing my lungs out but the next burried in tears
after these days, i've came across the true meaning of FRIENDS
they are the ones that will be by ur side when you needed them most
they are the ones that will console and comfort you when you're down and having hard times
they are the ones who will wipe off your tears when you have them
they are the ones that will share their deepest thoughts with you when they thought of doing so
they are the ones that will try to make you smile again when you're not in the mood
they are the ones that you want to be with all the times even enmities are present but yet you're trying your best to fix them


therefore, apologies are given without hoping any in return.

uh oh

i miss my girlfriends all the sudden
despite the current ones or the former ones
and with former i mean kohkyean, huiwen, vin, yuenjing, peiyee, pikyee, wanping, meikei, meichien, michelle, peisan, yen, weilin and more
hereby i would like to say thank you for walking me through the ups and downs
and sorry for all the mishaps that happened
we were once bonded together as fate brought us together
now that we're apart, it doesn't mean that we're enemies
the best thing is that we're living a happier life with new friends
the memories will just stay in our mind and heart for good
anyhow, i still wish you guys all the best and love ya =)





and for the former guy friends a.k.a weilian, senghin, kimseng, chingkam, fang yang and so, miss you guys too !
thanks that you guys brought joys to my life

likewise, i'm really blissful to have my current girl and guy friends that really care for each other
it's really nice to have them around when you're happy or sad
needless to say, there will certainly be times that we have grudges on each other
but as time goes by, it'll totally heal
i believe time can amend the scars left behind

Every good thing must come to an end, and you'll be saying goodbye to a pleasant person or experience today. But don't be too sad for too long -- saying goodbye to one thing just gives you the opportunity to say hello to something new! It is a great day to put into action one of those ideas you've kept simmering on the back burner for so long. You can make something happen and embark on a whole new journey. Take advantage of the possibilities that are all around you.

this is what i got from friendster's daily horoscope interpretation
no doubts, this is what i've been working on lately
i'm really sick and tired of what i'm having and facing now
maybe it's time to turn onto a new leaf
goodbye to you my dear

sometimes people just come into your life
like they're meant to be
yes, you have lots of friends
but how many will be there when you're sad
yes, you're always happy, always laughing your lungs out
but how many know that you're just barely concealing all your grieves ?
disappointments eventually ruled the world
nothing can defeat this disastrous situation
that's why they say out of the frying pan and into the fire
everything went from bad to worse
let bygones be bygones ?
it depends whether you can make it or not
seriously this time it's devastating
the good times are behind us
good times still to come ?
no one will know when you're crying, when you're smiling
everything seems to be a part of your life
you've turned to someone who doesn't portray your real emotions just to protect yourself
it LOOKS like you have thousands and millions of friends
but who is the one that really know that you're crying over minor things that they thought that it's okay with you?
you might act like you don't care at all but deep inside, you want to care and you're damn concern
you don't stand up as your own in the society
you shouldn't pay attention to one only
there's much more things to care and worry about
if you don't, soon you'll be isolated by the society
damn, made the worst mistake
put my trust onto someone i dont know
people come and go
to be precise, you couldn't blame much if they weren't or aren't there for you
you've gotta swallow it and get going with life

let the days unravel,
let the years unfold,
i can hardly wait to see
what the miles ahead will hold

totally speechless i've gotta say
i didn't know things will get so horrible
awkward situation
this time is the worst time ever
no words in my mind, no idea what i'm typing
hostility, hatred, betrayal, misunderstandings
damn !

it's the forth day of the trip to thailand

which means that we're heading back to bangkok from pattaya
along the trip, we dropped by at a wonderland
i would not say that it's a wonderful one like disney land or what ever
but it's satisfying
the thrilling ones are real thrilling and others are just cool
the best thing is to be around your family members and that's it











dont play play, daddy's a good racer








see how cute daddy can be =D





















































































































was back in the bangkok hotel at night
and caught this dota competition going on on TV
it was korea vs japan if i'm not mistaken =D
doze off to bed later on